Fearless

Am I fearless?Or do I just not care?I break threw head first.FearlessMy only fear is my fear of what I might do,or might not do.Could I jump out of a airplane? Yes.If it my time to die,who am I to stop it?again I say fearless.Am I bold enough to speak in front of a class? I have.Why am I fearless? because I am numb to the world.i feel,Love, Hate,sometimes shame, but why would I want to feel fear when half my life thats all that i felt?Im done with fear, I have looked fear in its ugly face too many times to count.Maybe i have accepted that bad things can happen to me.There is no use living in fear of what -ifs.Its pointlessFearlessAgain my only fear is myself, I choose not to fear others, that only gives them power.I am numb because I dont want to feel, because if I choose to feel,If and when I do, itwill set off the fear of myself, Because I probley would do anything to rid the pain. And nobody wants thatI know I dont want thatIve been in sistuations where I was frozen in fear and all that went thru my head was "How will I ever get thru this".I dont want that fear again.so I will stay fearless.