Fearless
Am I fearless?Or do I just not care?I break threw head first.FearlessMy only fear is my fear of what I might do,or might not do.Could I jump out of a airplane? Yes.If it my time to die,who am I to stop it?again I say fearless.Am I bold enough to speak in front of a class? I have.Why am I fearless? because I am numb to the world.i feel,Love, Hate,sometimes shame, but why would I want to feel fear when half my life thats all that i felt?Im done with fear, I have looked fear in its ugly face too many times to count.Maybe i have accepted that bad things can happen to me.There is no use living in fear of what -ifs.Its pointlessFearlessAgain my only fear is myself, I choose not to fear others, that only gives them power.I am numb because I dont want to feel, because if I choose to feel,If and when I do, itwill set off the fear of myself, Because I probley would do anything to rid the pain. And nobody wants thatI know I dont want thatIve been in sistuations where I was frozen in fear and all that went thru my head was "How will I ever get thru this".I dont want that fear again.so I will stay fearless.
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REMs song, Walk Unafraid is currently one of my mantras; I thought I would share the lyrics and a link to the song on YouTube with you.
Many hugs,
Tracey
R.E.M. - Walk Unafraid Lyrics
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5gyQHQe8rrM
As the sun comes up
As the moon goes down
These heavy notions creep around
It makes me think long ago
I was brought into this life
A little lamb, a little lamb
Courageous, stumbling
Fearless was my middle name
But somewhere there I lost my way
Everyone walks the same
Expecting me to step
The narrow path they\'ve laid, they claim to
Walk unafraid
I\'ll be clumsy instead
Hold my love me or leave me high
Say, \"Keep within the boundaries
If you want to play\"
Say, \"Contradiction only
Makes it harder\"
How can I be
What I want to be?
When all I want to do is strip away
These stilled constraints
And crush this charade
Shred this sad masquerade
I don\'t need no persuading
I\'ll trip, fall, pick myself up and
Walk unafraid
I\'ll be clumsy instead
Hold my love me or leave me high
If I have a bag of rocks to carry as I go
I just want to hold my head up high
I don\'t care what I have to step over
I\'m prepared to look you in the eye
Look me in the eye
And if you see familiarity
Then celebrate the contradiction
Help me when I fall to
Walk unafraid
I\'ll be clumsy instead
Hold my love me or leave me high
Walk unafraid
I\'ll be clumsy instead
Hold my love me or leave me high
well, you certainly have a great understanding of yourself and how fear plays a part in it in many ways. You have the understanding and the tools now and all you have to do is take the time to look at the fears and numbness and you will fly.
WOW......i could never come up with something like that, but reading it...totally brought out every \"fearless\" feeling ive ever had...and i completely agree...thank you for writing that sweetie....BIG HUGS to you....
wow I am amazed at your talent for expressing what alot of us have inside. Beautifuly put girl!! I loved it.Annalee
Girl, I was asked to write about my past by someone on this site, he did not understand what happened to me and my brother, so I journaled about it, and now some girl wants to remove me because I was honest with everyone on my journal. Well I made a difference, it did not happen to my kids, I stopped endless years of abuse. And for that I am grateful. When I read your poem I was given the answer, I am not going to live in fear of my past, I lived it after all and survived it and became a better person for it. So for today, I am going to leave it. So if you want something to write about, hey read my journal on sexual abuse, I am going to leave it for now. It is there for someone to read, and I suppose this person can get over heself. Your poem released me from the fear. and that is all I needed. To be released of it. Thank you so very much. I love you dearly and wish that I could articulate as well in poems as you do. Girl u have an awesome gift and I hope you never give it up. I look forward to reading them and finding strength, come from them. Thanks for being my teacher today. I owe you a big one. Lots Of Love, Thank you for thinking of me, Kacey