Father's Day

Tomorrow is father's day. My dad in coming over to my mom's house (his ex-wife) and he is bringing his second wife and step-son. My brother will be arriving around noon, but I know that is probably not going to be the case as he will be drinking an partying all night and tomorrow he has to drive from Salida to Denver. So I don't think that he is going to make it by noon, which is a bummer because I have not seen him in a long time and I want to see him and spend some time with him. I think that I am getting really heavy lately and I don't know if it is me or maybe the seroquel acting on my body. I am going to go down from 800 mg to 200 mg this evening and see what happens. If anything I will just take a xanax to knock me out. I don't think that I will have to. I am watching the movie "Into The Wild" this is where a man attempts to seek freedom from civilization and the world by simply disappearing into the depths of Alaska. I don't know what freedom is to me... it definitely isn't going that far into the cold and secluded. Turning off my cell phone will do it for me.  I wanted to get all of my reading done tonight so I didn't have to do it tomorrow. I just want to hang around and drink and have fun. I think that I will try to get it done after mom goes to bed and when I retreat to my bedroom. I will read it before I get to sleep and due to the drug intake I probably wont remember it anyway and then i will wake up with some bazar thing that I will find me. It happens to me now and again, and I know that it happens to some of the other people on here have the same symptoms with seroquel. You just never know what is going to happen when you are under the influence of Seroquel. I really am scared to do this presentation, I know that my team has my back but I still want to be completely prepared for the discussion. I will try to journal tomorrow in the morning before the fathers day stuff/