Faith in God has helped with the loss of Smokey (husband)

Faith in God has helped with the loss of my husband Smokey.  We were together for ten years.  I think without my faith in God I might not be here anymore.  It is the unbearable loss of not being together with the love of my life Smokey.  We are separated permanently thru death.  God brought us together and then God took Smokey away.  I have to believe there is a purpose for his death and my loss.  At times I feel like I can't go on anymore.  Each day I wake up and say God must have a purpose for me because I am still alive.  I don't understand any more than the next person.  I like to think we will figure it out when we all get to heaven.  It will make sense at that time.  I don't know how anyone can cope without having faith in God.  I think I would probably want to commit suicide as it is an unbearable pain in my heart.  Knowing that my life and Smokey's death has a purpose I have yet to figure out keeps me going on and living my life.  I have met many people thru this loss of mine.  With the loss of Smokey, some people have become even closer to me.  I really know the support of friends and family.  Even Smokey's family has been supportive to me.  A friend that I thought was just a distant friend has become invaluable to me now, which i thought never would happen.  These are all the positive things that have happened to me with the loss of Smokey.  These things might not have happened otherwise.  I am trying to see the positive things out of Smokey's death.  Smokey's death has to mean something.  I am still telling people that I don't see very often about his death.  It is a shocker that is for sure and very unexpected.  Don't get me wrong here but I still miss Smokey each and every day that I am breathing.  All the best to you in your own personal grief and experiences.  How are you coping with the loss?