Failing to get through

Great, that's just great..
10.90/20 in an assignment! 
Shows how much damn mental health can affect your thinking! 
I'm having an absolutely dreadful time just trying to go on, then a mark like this shows up and just continues to kick me in the shins!
How much of this am I meant to take? Why does life have to be so hard? I just want to sleep, and leave this all to the other people who can actually deal with everyday life, those who actually make a difference to the world, those who are actually worth it.. 
I'm still going, so don't worry, like worse things worse is that I just quit university altogether, but I just hate this and life, its all just way to hard! :'(

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ann54
ann54

I know it is hard when you get a bad grade, I can still remember the feeling, esp. after studying so hard. we all get those grades at times but you know how smart you are and this was as setback. I am saddened you quit university, maybe you can start up again when you are stronger mentally and physically. it appears you sound depressed, are you seeing someone for this? hugss
TheED
TheED

Nah, I haven\'t quit yet, just having to just keep on crawling along the dirty, bumpy, hilly road, and will hopefully get there eventually. I just wish my mind wanted to do the same.. :(

Yeah, I am seeing a psychologist and psychiatrist and dietician, also starting new meds. But yes, severe major depression.. along with everything else.. is not fun. Especially when its come back harder than ever :\'(