Failed - will power?
I failed miserably today...........I didn't have will power. Why did I have it yesterday and not today. I started out terribly. I woke up and had a cig. I kept thinking, ok, I'll only have this one and then not have any for the rest of the day. I knew I goofed up but thought it would have been a slip. No.......after that first one, I wanted another, and another, and I then bargained with myself and said that I would try again tomorrow. I AM A FAILURE AT THIS. Maybe the doctor will help me out with this tomorrow. I MUST QUIT, THERE IS NO OTHER ALTERNATIVE, I MUST QUIT OR I WILL CONTINUE KILLING MYSELF BY SMOKING!!!!!! SOMEONE OUT THERE MUST HAVE THE SAME BAD WILL POWER.
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