faith

Dear journal its Sunday morning, traditionally a day of worship. I should I know, I make excuses for not. Telling people I am a christian while having doubts cant be right. Am I a christian? I accept Jesus as my savor. Accepting him is the easy part is it not? I tell myself he died on the cross for me and that this was Gods gift so that I could be forgiven of my sins. Why? Because that's what I have been taught to say, its what I have read. It happened and he does forgive me. There I said it, so why God? Why don't I feel tears in my eyes now, where are the bright lights? Faith I guess is the answer. "Faith is trust, hope and belief in the goodness, trustworthiness or reliability of a person, concept or entity." I will study this word "Faith" today.
joe