F-Buddy

My W cheated on me again!!!  With a guy she calls a F Buddy!  She's seen him a total of 5 times and to me that's 5 times too many.  She says it's all just sex.  When we have sex it's comprised of all these emotions and fixed up feelings.  But when she has sex with this F Buddy, it free of everything but aggressive sex!  I'm tired.  I'm tired of trying to keep this together.  Where do I go from here?
Nothing in my morals and beliefs say that this behavior is acceptable.  Nowhere is this even a bandaid for things missing in our marriage.  I don't want this anymore!!!  I am falling down a hole and there is no end in sight.
Tell me this is purgatory for all the sins I've committed?  Tell me that I've deserved this for my past wrong doings?  WTF.  I'm better than this.
Me
 
 

Replies

deleted_user
deleted_user

NO ONE deserves this! I\'m so sorry. I\'ve had a year of pain and hurt and questions like this. But let me tell you... being on the other side of things, you don\'t deserve this at all!

OMG.. if she has a F-buddy... what can you do?? You can\'t stay with her. No matter what your \"sins\" you didn\'t make her cheat.

I\'m sorry you are going through this. I will check out more of your journals to see how you are doing. Hugs!!

DG
hardtostay15
hardtostay15

Thanks Designgirl38. I\'ve read some of your journals and your journey. Wow! I\'m so sorry you guys are getting a divorce. It\'s really tough to hear that divorce was an option that made you feel de-stressed. I would love to chat with you on how you finally made you decision. And how you\'re doing today. Curious to know more about you and how you feel apart. Sorry for being so forward. Let me know if you\'d like to talk sometime.

Thanks for your truely heart felt concern.
Jaime