EXPLODING. NEED RELEASE. SO TIRED.
MY heart seems so broken again...I think because I don't do much makes Ken's death full force to me again...oh Abby, what you wrote me I believe and maybe the stress part of the brain is close by. I know when I get stressed, my problems get worse..I feel something has to be going on inside my body for things to keep happening
First almost 3 years and the gums will not heal..biopsy showed inflammation. The taste is getting worse and seems more area of the gums hurt. Wish I knew what to do. Just read Epson Salt is a good mouthwash, and have already tried it on my feet..need to do it more
Step daughter has become very mean. Has forbids me to visit when my husband goes and he wants me there. It is a long drive 18 hours round trip, they don't bother to vist him. She was 4 hours away when she wrote me, but never asked her dad about getting together. With his heart and dizzy spells he does not need to be along that much driving. I do not care if I ever see her again, I do it for respect of my husband..this is no child but an adult women who happens to be a Hospice Nurse. Now you would think being a Hospice nurse there would be compassion. But her goal is just the amount of money she gets. I have no way to fix it and she says her dad is making the decision I told her she forced him to choose me or her as I told her,I would never ask someone to choose. We see them about 8 times a year. Like I told her I knew she hates me, has stated I am not her step mother which I have never asked her to but she wanted to make sure I knew the hate she feels for me. So added stress..the doctors tell me I hold stress in that is why I get sick. I wish they would explain.
I FEEL LIKE EXPLODING....SORRY NEED A RELEASE!!!!
First almost 3 years and the gums will not heal..biopsy showed inflammation. The taste is getting worse and seems more area of the gums hurt. Wish I knew what to do. Just read Epson Salt is a good mouthwash, and have already tried it on my feet..need to do it more
Step daughter has become very mean. Has forbids me to visit when my husband goes and he wants me there. It is a long drive 18 hours round trip, they don't bother to vist him. She was 4 hours away when she wrote me, but never asked her dad about getting together. With his heart and dizzy spells he does not need to be along that much driving. I do not care if I ever see her again, I do it for respect of my husband..this is no child but an adult women who happens to be a Hospice Nurse. Now you would think being a Hospice nurse there would be compassion. But her goal is just the amount of money she gets. I have no way to fix it and she says her dad is making the decision I told her she forced him to choose me or her as I told her,I would never ask someone to choose. We see them about 8 times a year. Like I told her I knew she hates me, has stated I am not her step mother which I have never asked her to but she wanted to make sure I knew the hate she feels for me. So added stress..the doctors tell me I hold stress in that is why I get sick. I wish they would explain.
I FEEL LIKE EXPLODING....SORRY NEED A RELEASE!!!!
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It\'s safe to vent here. Sending love and understanding hugs.
I\'m so sorry. Stress does take a terrible toll on our bodies - hope you can get some kind of relief before too long. Take care ~ Joanna x
Remember the best you can do for yourself and those that love you, is to stay away from toxic people. Life is too short to live with pain that is not necessary. Now Can I follow this advise. HAHA!!!! Hoping you get some peace. Love, kathy
I totally understand!! The stress I have felt, since Billy turned on me, has made me physically sick, as well. I did nothing to deserve it, as I am sure you did nothing to deserve this womans\' hate. Sounds like jealousy to me.
I feel sorry for you and your husband. It is an impossible place to be in, for both of you. I am still putting one foot in front of the other and taking things one step at a time. Hang in there, Sandi
((((HUGS)))), Julia
Just feels so unnecessary and for that I am sorry...
Please take care of yourself Sandi, and know what is about you and what isn\'t. When I am able to discern this for myself I generally feel so much lighter and better. Only take on what is yours and surrender the rest. Not easily done, I know, yet something I continually try to remain mindful of.
Healing and peace filled (((hugs)))
XO Joanie
Feel free to vent here Sandi.
It is so sad that your step daughter is so vindictive. You would think a hospice nurse would be compassionate but I guess it takes all kinds. It sounds like she is punishing her dad as much as you. How sad!
As for the stress. It can definitely mess with your immune system. I wish I had some wonderful solution for you but I don\'t.
Several years ago Lisa cross stitched a cushion cover for me. \'God grant me the courage to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference\'. It is the AA motto. But it is so pertinent. I have to remind myself often. What can I do? What can\'t I do?
I think Lisa must have sensed that I would need the reminder one day.
Please take care of yourself.
Love and tight hugs,
Marlene
It would feel good to let all the built up anxiety explode. Like having a punching bag that you can punch every time things get bad. You need an outlet. I go to the gym work out and feel better physically and mentally.
You will find your outlet and use it
tight hugs Penny