Everything makes me miss you

God babe I miss you. Everything I do just reminds me off you and makes me miss you even more.I went to watch the Liverpool game with our Liam today, I miss watching the game with you, I miss going to the game with you. Each time we scored I just wanted you there to grab and celebrate with. Its starting to get real scary now, we're top of the league with 4 games left! Definitely squeaky bum time as you'd say. You said you could see us doing well this season. It would be absolutely amazing if we managed to win but I'm so torn, I'd love us to win but then at the same time I can't help but think I don't because its just not fair that you're not here to see us win it for the first time in over 20 years, the first time we'd remember it anyways. How is it fair that you don't get to see it?I watched the 2nd Hobbit film on Friday night, I'll never forget when we went to see the 1st one together with you family, we were all sat with them stupid 3d glasses on, you kept laughing at me coz it was the first 3d film I'd seen and I kept jumping everytime anything came flying out the screen. Then I remember everyone laughing at each other at the end of the film as we all had big red marks on our noses off the glasses. I sat in bed by myself watching the new one and I just kept thinking how much I wanted you there, I'd have had my head buried in your shoulder asking 'have they gone yet' when that horrible spider scene was on, I know you'd have gone 'yer babe they're gone' but they'd still be there on the screen. I know when Legolas came on you'd have been like 'you well fancy him don't ya' haha. I'd have said yes but not as much as I fancy you! When the film ended I could hear you in my ear going 'Whaaaaaatt? No way have they just ended it like that!' I ended up in tears by the end credits coz I just wanted you with me so much. Everything I do just makes me want you, i had a crap day in work on friday, I just wanted to tell you all about it and have a little rant, you always listened to my rants and then always made me feel better. I drove up to Chester yesterday and as I was driving there I just kept thinking that the last time I came this way it was my birthday and you were taking me for my birthday lunch at that gorgeous restaurant on the River Dee, I had to fight back the tears as I was driving along the motorway. I hate it Matt, I hate everything reminding me of you, I hate everything making me miss you, I hate that you're not here. they say time makes it easier, but time just makes it harder, everyday that passes without so much as a hug,a kiss, a word, even a text from you is harder than the last. I don't think I'll ever stop missing you babe, and I know for certain I will never stop loving you.