every little bit's a battle
I'm somewhere between ok and not ok. I'm going to try and be positive and say I'm feeling ok today. At least I got out of bed. That's something, right? Actually, that seems to be the biggest challenge for me. It's the yardstick by which I measure how depressed I am. If I can't or just don't want to get out of bed and let that feeling overtake me, I know it's bad. I got out of bed today, so that's good.
I found a good article about dealing with depression: http://www.helpguide.org/mental/depression_tips.htm
It's not new information necessarily, it just helped to remind me of the things that I can at least try to do when I'm dealing with things on a daily basis. I read the article and am reminded that my depression is real, that the symptoms are those which I identify with....especially the guilt and isolation. The revolving thoughts that I can't seem to get rid of.
I posted the link to the article on the Depression forum general topics area hoping it will help someone else too. I know when you're in the throes of depression, knowing these things doesn't seem to help, because you're too down to even try, but maybe something will click. What I like about the article is that for every area, there are tangible things to try and do. Even if you can't do a bunch, maybe just trying one will help.
There was a post from skiingjon about feeling fatigue and disinterest that I really related to, so I sent him a message just to let him know this is how depression affects me too. He seemed relieved to get a response. It really does help to know you're not alone. Sometimes that helps more than anything.
I am dressed and thinking I will try to leave the house alone. Alone! What a daunting thought. I figured I would go to the post office. It's not that far away and it's sunny out. I took the Nuvigil like my doctor recommended, so I have some nervous energy I should probably burn off. And hopefully exercise will help me sleep better. It seems like the Cymbalta has been waking me up in the middle of the night and making it hard to fall back asleep right away. At least I think it's the Cymbalta from what I've read from other users.
I tried to get up the nerve to leave the house and go to the post office yesterday as well. I didn 't make it. Maybe today will be the day. Maybe I'll try and do it right now. As soon as I finish this post.
How is it possible that these small things that we take for granted (getting up, brushing our hair, etc.) when we're well become so insurmountable when we're depressed? I know it's part of the depression. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.
I have a choice. I can choose to leave the house.
I found a good article about dealing with depression: http://www.helpguide.org/mental/depression_tips.htm
It's not new information necessarily, it just helped to remind me of the things that I can at least try to do when I'm dealing with things on a daily basis. I read the article and am reminded that my depression is real, that the symptoms are those which I identify with....especially the guilt and isolation. The revolving thoughts that I can't seem to get rid of.
I posted the link to the article on the Depression forum general topics area hoping it will help someone else too. I know when you're in the throes of depression, knowing these things doesn't seem to help, because you're too down to even try, but maybe something will click. What I like about the article is that for every area, there are tangible things to try and do. Even if you can't do a bunch, maybe just trying one will help.
There was a post from skiingjon about feeling fatigue and disinterest that I really related to, so I sent him a message just to let him know this is how depression affects me too. He seemed relieved to get a response. It really does help to know you're not alone. Sometimes that helps more than anything.
I am dressed and thinking I will try to leave the house alone. Alone! What a daunting thought. I figured I would go to the post office. It's not that far away and it's sunny out. I took the Nuvigil like my doctor recommended, so I have some nervous energy I should probably burn off. And hopefully exercise will help me sleep better. It seems like the Cymbalta has been waking me up in the middle of the night and making it hard to fall back asleep right away. At least I think it's the Cymbalta from what I've read from other users.
I tried to get up the nerve to leave the house and go to the post office yesterday as well. I didn 't make it. Maybe today will be the day. Maybe I'll try and do it right now. As soon as I finish this post.
How is it possible that these small things that we take for granted (getting up, brushing our hair, etc.) when we're well become so insurmountable when we're depressed? I know it's part of the depression. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.
I have a choice. I can choose to leave the house.
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