Erasing my Birthday
I have no intention of celebrating my birthday. I thought after a suicide attempt I'd make this one extra special- even more so because it's my 21st. Instead I'm in a total funk tonight and i just don't want to hear the well wishes and the sappy quotes and all that sweet bullshit. Can I just celebrate Int'l Survivors of Suicide Loss Day instead? You know what, that's what I'll do. Screw 21.
I thought the Prozac would help. It hasn't and I won't be seeing my pdoc til January so I can't get an adjustment. I'm tempted to take another one and go against what she prescribed but I only have two more and I can't fill the next prescription til next month so that's a no go.. Sigh. I don't want to go back to that dark place but something is pushing me there and it's pushing hard.
I thought the Prozac would help. It hasn't and I won't be seeing my pdoc til January so I can't get an adjustment. I'm tempted to take another one and go against what she prescribed but I only have two more and I can't fill the next prescription til next month so that's a no go.. Sigh. I don't want to go back to that dark place but something is pushing me there and it's pushing hard.
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