Enthusiastic!

I you didn't read my last comment to you Shar, I highly recommend "The Untethered Soul" by Michael A. Singer for you, and any of my other friends who are recovering from codependency who read our Journal entries. 
Allow me to go through my monologue about how I got to where I am while writing this. Last year I spent some time at the Shambala Center (for Buddhism Philosophy) and learned how to meditate better, at least better than before. And I got good at it, focusing on watching my thoughts and feelings by sitting in a quiet place, with no disturbances, maybe some good soft music, usually late in the evening, in the dark or low light. This book is the next step, where I begin to learn to watch my thoughts and feelings while I'm completely awake, during the day, being busy with everyday things, thoughts, and feelings. This is different. What I learned from the book in the last two days is to how to focus or not focus my attention on the thoughts that my "ever-so-critical-roommate-in-my-mind" comes up with to try to get my attention, create a fear, or a painful feeling. It is ME, my Self (recognizing my Self as separate form my random thoughts and feelings; the "ONE" who is aware that I am thinking thoughts and feeling feelings and I can watch the thoughts and feelings as something separate from me) and to be able to differentiate myself from those thoughts and feelings, as just objects passing through. What I give my attention to enlarges and I hold on to (or get STUCK on) that I won't let go for some reason, and that reason is usually attached to a feeling, and a painful one. Also, the thoughts that I resist become a focal point that gets "stuck" that I immediately believe I must "fix' or "resolve". What the author does is present the metaphor of all the tress I am aware of driving in to work everyday that I do not give any particular attention to, that are like the thoughts that are constantly going through my mind all day long  What I've learned now is that I do NOT "HAVE TO" give my attention to each and every thought, and "fix" it, I can just let them pass.
One of the biggest "shifts" today is being made aware of the feeling of resisting "the fear of emotional pain". Resisting "the pain" enlarges it by giving it my attention to avoid it. Let me put it another way, if I understand the author/teacher correctly: My "Comfort Zone" is avoiding ANY emotional pain. The problem is, the emotional pain is a thought, it is not real; it is mental. Physiologically, I am not hurt. I create the potential hurt with my thought or thoughts. The thought is: "I must avoid any possible feelings of pain because I can't survive the thought of pain". And that is just a thought, not a fact. By constantly believing I must withdraw from emotional pain because I can't withstand the suffering, is just a thought I give attention to if I choose. It is not true. The thought is just a thought; I can give it my attention or not; "I" being myself who has the ability to recognize that the thoughts are random and that I can watch them arise and pass or not, just like all the trees I pass that come into my senses while I'm driving. I get to choose, my true Self gets to choose, which thoughts are important or not, or whether to focus on them or not. The belief for me to be aware of is that I cannot survive any emotional pain. That if my thoughts, that just happen to be passing by and through my life like "clouds-in-the-sky", create an attachment to a painful feeling, I can decide whether to obey the connection to the pain or not, and whether I will actually survive the pain or not. They are thoughts, they are not real. Only I make them real by giving them my attention. The teaching, then, is to let the thoughts pass through my awareness without stopping and getting STUCK trying to fix or pretend I will not survive the emotional pain "I" attach to them. The teaching, then, is to become aware that I can survive the pain. All my life my thoughts, all my painful thoughts, I have collected and not let go of, for fear that I cannot survive feeling them. The truth is, that thought, and those trapped feelings, have kept me from enjoying anything else. My entire focus has been on avoiding  the pain that I'm still holding to and won't let go of. I am holding on to them, I'm doing that avoiding of the imaginary pain, I'm not letting go. This is different, now. I am not my thoughts or feelings. Thoughts and feelings are "things", of the mind, objects, that I can bring to my attention or not, like the trees, and the road. I make them important of not; they have no power to make themselves important. It's a newer way of thinking.
Read the book. There is much more to its teachings that I write here. It is refreshing. It is the way to further enlightenment and freedom form codependency. Read the book and let's discuss it.
Explore freely. 
Love you all, Rich