engendering hope and positivity

had  a really hard time yesterday later in the day - - took a mental wrong


turn  - my strength abandons me - and I make choices sometimes

that aren't so wise - and nearly that are unavoidable because I fatigue - 

I need something to hold onto and don't know where to find it -

- and so I did and then was left exposed and troubled and hurt - 

- this morning just trying to hold on to the pieces that are still there

- i know this must sound melodramatic and cryptic but just got to keep on keeping on.

don't have much to hold onto inside - I feel so defined by influences in my life - needing

to hold in place for them otherwise am in trouble - as I do my feebleness and fatigue drag me into an unwise

decision - 

I'll start the day and just keep on keeping on. 

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SensitiveHoboLady
SensitiveHoboLady

It’s a new day. I suppose we all do things that we question later. I know I do!

None of us are perfect though.

It’s a pretty solid signal of strength though to recognize and evaluate - but then proceed. Instincts could maybe guide next time with the memory of this awareness.

Here’s to a brand new day!
arfie
arfie

Yup, it sounds both melodramatic and cryptic. Welcome to Life. Just when I have all the answers, the questions change.

Just start the day and keep on truckin'.

Onward through the fog. . .
beckyp
beckyp

Sorry you had such a bad day yesterday. Hope it is better today.
malibumark
malibumark

thanks you guys! Going to treat myself to a second Starbucks! :) :)
SensitiveHoboLady
SensitiveHoboLady

I hope you enjoyed that second Starbucks! I’m about to get one shortly. I have no idea what I should order though! I have a bunch of gift cards stored so money is no object! Hahahah.
malibumark
malibumark

My habit is that I buy a vente Pike with non fat milk - I am trying to cut calories -
but then my one cheat day is Saturday. I buy a "Vente hot Chai Latte" super good!
Sweet but good.