Ending the Birthday Celebration
I think that the week long celebration of my 25th birthday was awesome with a great ending at the prestige champagne tasking at sushi sasa. It was pretty cool. My dad didn't tell me this until last night, but he is leaving today to go one a week long cruise. WTF. He hates going on cruises. I know that this is just for Chi. It is odd because he has not gone on a vacation, especially one like this for a long time. I am not going to worry about. At least he is happy, right?
I am not having suicidal thoughts as much as I have been within the past week. Now it is just going back to school and finishing up the semester. Then it is winter break and I hope I have a job by that point. I am going to reapply at Sprint and at the parking transportation department for the school. That might be a nice position to have. Or anything with the college. I want to buy some champagne after that wine tasting! Since we went we got a discount sheet which is good until Thanksgiving, which there are some great deals! especially on my favorite champagne Moet & Chandon. I know that I am not supposed to drink with my meds but I have been doing it for about 5 years and I suppose that my body has just gotten used to that with time.
I feel depressed that I am kinda on my own. Every time I go out I have to go out with my friends and their partners. I never have a partner to go out with. I am also depressed because of money and because I feel that i am not doing well in school because every time that I need to do my work, study or take a test i simply give up and search for an excuse to do so. Even if it is just to tell myself that I will just have to do better next time or do something different in preparation next time. Why can't I have discipline and do my work? I am trying to take the ADHD medication, but I don't think that it is working.
I am excited for today because mom and I are going to go to a movie and then to happy hour lunch at Maggiano's, because they have a great deal of eat a meal here and take another one home for free. I really just want to go there and eat and drink everything I can, lol. I need to do homework and a bunch of it this weekend to catch up and keep up! I am going to do smoke some pot and see if that lightens my mood. I think that I will journal later this afternoon/evening.
Goodnight moon.
I am not having suicidal thoughts as much as I have been within the past week. Now it is just going back to school and finishing up the semester. Then it is winter break and I hope I have a job by that point. I am going to reapply at Sprint and at the parking transportation department for the school. That might be a nice position to have. Or anything with the college. I want to buy some champagne after that wine tasting! Since we went we got a discount sheet which is good until Thanksgiving, which there are some great deals! especially on my favorite champagne Moet & Chandon. I know that I am not supposed to drink with my meds but I have been doing it for about 5 years and I suppose that my body has just gotten used to that with time.
I feel depressed that I am kinda on my own. Every time I go out I have to go out with my friends and their partners. I never have a partner to go out with. I am also depressed because of money and because I feel that i am not doing well in school because every time that I need to do my work, study or take a test i simply give up and search for an excuse to do so. Even if it is just to tell myself that I will just have to do better next time or do something different in preparation next time. Why can't I have discipline and do my work? I am trying to take the ADHD medication, but I don't think that it is working.
I am excited for today because mom and I are going to go to a movie and then to happy hour lunch at Maggiano's, because they have a great deal of eat a meal here and take another one home for free. I really just want to go there and eat and drink everything I can, lol. I need to do homework and a bunch of it this weekend to catch up and keep up! I am going to do smoke some pot and see if that lightens my mood. I think that I will journal later this afternoon/evening.
Goodnight moon.
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