End of Days

The other day I read an article about a doctor who disagreed with chemotherapy for end-stage cancer.  He sighted that many patients get pneumonia, a relatively painless way to die, but the doctors bring them back, only to continue prolonging their suffering with unnecessary treatments.  They know there is no hope, but refuse to tell the patient.  The patient is therefore  left suffering a long painful death. 
Doctors don't like telling  patients that they are dying.  I found out my mom was dying by looking on the internet.  Imagine sitting at work and finding this out?  At any rate, I made decisions early in life about my end of days.  I determined that I don't want to know and I don't want extraordinary treatments to prolong my suffering.  I have no routine tests done.  My doctor knows this even if she doesn't agree.  I don't tell others to follow my example, but when people find out, they tell me I'm crazy.  They tell me that I don't know what I'll do until the doctor is there telling me something negative and I'm being told my treatment options.  They venture to say  that I will probably do anything to survive.
Then I tell them my story.  You see years ago, when I was 34, I discovered a lump in my breast.  I was young, my whole life ahead of me, so I went to a doctor.  A  mammogram  and further test were inconclusive, so a biopsy was ordered.  I had the biopsy  which revealed I was cancer free.  Two weeks later I came back to the doctor for a follow-up and he found another lump in the same breast.  He said, we'll order a biopsy.  He wanted to order one for a suspicious lump on my neck too.  I got up and got dressed.  I went home and thought about it.  I pictured a future looking for cancer, then I turned my life over to the Great Physician, God.  I prayed for divine protection from disease and never went back to the doctor.  
It's been 21 years since that day.  And life for me is about life.  As for my end of days, well, I've asked for perfect health.  I don't see treatment to prolong life as an option for me.  Instead, I see a life of living with eternity waiting.  And I pray to God I can retain this belief in the years to come.