Empty....
Another day and I am even emptier than I was yesterday...I think I will become so empty I will become one big hole that will swallow myself up,,,sounds crazy but I dont think it could get any worse but each day a little more of me disappears.I am a shell of who I was .My house is so silent..how could one little 4lb baby make so much noise..his baby brother was always the hellion..always making us laugh with his antics and Giz would sit back and watch quietly til something caught his attention then he would roar but the roar has been silenced and each day who I was before that day just doesnt exist..how can one day determine me...I'm a happy positive person caring compassionate a fighter for animals and the elderly ..that was me...today I dont know who or what I am...all I can say is EMPTY EMPTY EMPTY.....
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Please, Please, HOLD ON!! My tears just flowed for you reading your journal.I do know how your feeling! My heart just breaks for you-- I think I\'m doing better (it\'ll be 8 weeks Sunday) but then I still could crash anytime at all-everyday. There isn\'t any rhythm or reason.When hearts are broken and our sweetest little loved ones are gone-how can anything be the same again? There isn\'t one full day that goes by I still don\'t ache and cry. I also have one remaining (male) who my little girl would sit and watch him get into trouble- now there\'s deafening silence! Please know Im here and I\'m crying with you-sending arms and support.You are so important and needed-remember all that you do -giving of yourself to those so needy animals! You will always be positive and caring- just need much more time to heal!I pray the emptiness will one day fill for us both. Please take care and know there will be a light at the end of this tunnel! Your supportive friend, Laurie (Myfelines)