emotionaly spent

first of all i want to apologize for not being onlone for so long. i get so boggled up with myself i forget about this place. i will be honest, i havent been busy, i just havent felt like talking. so im at a trade school now and it was going great, im so happy with my choice to transfer here. i have made goals for the future and  im actually look forward to them. but as usual my depression is starting to spoil my experience=( at first i was making great friends, but now im starting to feel left out again. i am emotionaly spent, i find myself sitting alone in the back of the classroom. and my grades are slowly flushing themselfs down the toilet becuase of my new lack of motivation. when will i be happy ever again? i cant even remember the last time i was...