Emotional State

Such an emotional  state.....I can't understand this.....at some point my monthly cycle would come....I tried regulating my cycle by taken birth control pills...taken vitamins.
I believe the only way, to have a baby is..... to do ,extreme like... going on a diet,do another body cleanse....
I every time my cycle comes my stomach gets smaller,like my body is losing liquids...I am not even interested in visiting another specialist because their advice doesn't help me.
I decided to.... talk to woman that have children or are currently  pregnant....I have tried not to be around people with children,talk about children...but who am I trying to fool....what makes me realy uncomfortable ...is my birthday is in a few days and from reading...it seems that it's alot more challenging to have children at around a certain age...My Clock is ticking and I don't want to run out of time!