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Today is a loner for me. It seems that whenever I try my best to be good things always come to me. Yesterday I was thrown in jail for not having a drivers license. The officer then tried taking away the only thing that gives me breath( my children) after he was mean and brutal he charged me with other acts. Once I reported him the Chief simply said he done no wrong and nothing was done for his actions. I am at a point were I hate police. Not really because of this officer but because so many officers take advantage of their badges and get away with it. I try so hard to do right and it feels as if nothing I do isenough. I go to school, work and church. I work with children to help them have a better future, I try to be a good mother and yet it is not enough. I try to be a good wife and daughter and friend and the only thing seems to come about any of it is failure. I guess I will just have to except defeat. I feel as if I have no place here on this earth for me athat my existence here is in vain. the officer threaten to taser me, I wish he would have just shot me and got it over with. I wanna laugh, cry, and crawl in a deep whole to die.