Eddie's Angel date
As you my dear sisters & friends here at FMO & DS know tomorrow is Eddie's 1st Angel date. I wanted to share some things I feel Eddie has taught me over the past year & also some gifts he has given me.
Some of the things Eddie taught me are:
That I can survive the worst trauma a mother can experience. That I can grieve him with grace, ( some of the time) and that I can forgive myself for the other times.
That there are friends & then again there are FRIENDS.
That caring about another person's loss is healing to oneself.
That there are not enough tissues in the world, but that tears are a great release.
That I can still love & honor God.
How much my grandchildren need me.
How much I can love people who've experienced what I've experienced without ever meeting them. That the love is deep & extends to loving their children.
That some people will re-enter their own pain & share just because they want to help me.
Some of the gifts he's given me are:
A closer walk with God.
The ability to still hear his voice in my mind.
My grandchildren.
A closer relationship with my former daughter in law.
A new purpose - to help others heal.
A realization that in the final analysis all that matters is that I have shown others love.
The church I attend now - I was lead there.
My counselor - I was lead to her.
A new appreciation for the man I've been with for 19 years - he has stepped up and most importantly loved & loves my son.
Friendships that matter.
Signs: a rainbow, written messages, numbers on license plates, cards, text messages & letters I found after, and our final words to each other, "love you".
I have more, but I am going to end now with a heartfelt belief that God & my son lead me here to DS & FMO. I cannot tell you how grateful I am for all of you who continue to lift me up as you are in your own journey of grief. You helped me to survive the worst....I thank you & I love you...
Dear Eddie, I will love you forever. Thank you for being my son and a blessing me all the days of your life and beyond. I love you and I know you are in the arms of Jesus.
Some of the things Eddie taught me are:
That I can survive the worst trauma a mother can experience. That I can grieve him with grace, ( some of the time) and that I can forgive myself for the other times.
That there are friends & then again there are FRIENDS.
That caring about another person's loss is healing to oneself.
That there are not enough tissues in the world, but that tears are a great release.
That I can still love & honor God.
How much my grandchildren need me.
How much I can love people who've experienced what I've experienced without ever meeting them. That the love is deep & extends to loving their children.
That some people will re-enter their own pain & share just because they want to help me.
Some of the gifts he's given me are:
A closer walk with God.
The ability to still hear his voice in my mind.
My grandchildren.
A closer relationship with my former daughter in law.
A new purpose - to help others heal.
A realization that in the final analysis all that matters is that I have shown others love.
The church I attend now - I was lead there.
My counselor - I was lead to her.
A new appreciation for the man I've been with for 19 years - he has stepped up and most importantly loved & loves my son.
Friendships that matter.
Signs: a rainbow, written messages, numbers on license plates, cards, text messages & letters I found after, and our final words to each other, "love you".
I have more, but I am going to end now with a heartfelt belief that God & my son lead me here to DS & FMO. I cannot tell you how grateful I am for all of you who continue to lift me up as you are in your own journey of grief. You helped me to survive the worst....I thank you & I love you...
Dear Eddie, I will love you forever. Thank you for being my son and a blessing me all the days of your life and beyond. I love you and I know you are in the arms of Jesus.
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hugging u and eddie close to my heart on the eve of his angel date...i know so well ur heartache!...may tomorrow bring peace and comfort and surround you with signs and love from above...ur angel with be with you~~thinking of you...hugs...luv ya...walking beside you
What a beautiful tribute to your son/ I hope the day passed gently filled with loving memories. Sandi
Thank ypu all. Love you.
You are an amazing woman. I think I understand how Jesus felt when he saw and was amazed at how strong a faith one of His early believers had. Reading what you wrote just makes me feel good all over. Eddie is incredibly lucky to have you for his mom. I know I couldn\'t have expressed such love and gratitude so early on, that would be years later! Love, Donna