Easter disaster

forced to sleep at my BFs parents over the Easter weekend despite that I’ve been on nightshift and had little to no sleep. We have dogs and his parents have dogs. The dogs do NOT get along. Ours were hyperactive, hyperventilating and generally having a terrible time. I went to bed early and took them upstairs with me hoping that they would calm down and eventually settle. Instead I slept alone, the dogs were awake all nice, they were both stressed and vomiting. Then the next day I had to get up put on a brave face, pretend to be happy and sit down and have Sunday dinner with the whole family. All the while I literally wanted to kill myself. I said it wasn’t acceptable and that we couldn’t sleep there in the future or bring the dogs round because it wasn’t fair to make them ill. Apparently that’s me being selfish. I’m tempted to go back to my mams for a bit because I literally can’t cope.