Drownig in tears

I feel kike I am drowing in anxiety.I cant catch up my breath, jus let me go. My family falls apart daily and I know it is not from me. I am at the museum now. I ahve been here since 9am. Idon't know what I am doingnin this world. I make my father upset becaause I dislike his wife and and he knows that I go out of my the way to make her feel more confortable. I in place of this makes me feel like dirt, as if I dont alreay feel apart of that family.
 
Luke has been calling recently, I shoul call him back.
 
Goodnight moon.