As I can't eat (diet), can't drink (alcoholic), can't screw (single), I decided to go gambling after class with the $20 in free play the casino gives me. I turned that 20 into $90, and on the way home there was this brilliant rainbow with a double reflection rainbow that arched perfectly over the road I was driving down. I could see both ends of it, and there was this amber light, but also charcoal sky ahead. It was the kind of lighting a cinematographer would cream their pants for. My good friend, who moved back from Vegas to the dismal MI economy, has been considering returning there if she couldn't find work and was finally offered a job today. I managed to pull off a B on my exam though I was completely and utterly unprepared. I'm happy with that. I feel there's some charm in the air today, like maybe that rainbow was this symbolic gateway to my new life, new self... new man? One can dream....and boy can I dream I get celebrities in my dreams. I don't get intimate with them, but it's like I get to meet them. The other night Hunter Parish from Weeds was in my dream. He's a man popsicle. Maybe I could be a cougar? Amazing how quickly things can change with a little magic in your life. I know I'm not ready, but it would be so nice to have the butterflies again after being locked in a relationship for 13 years. I am never able to keep the guys who give me butterflies. I always fuck it up.