Dorsal lateral geniculate nucleus
I am without a doubt depressed. I dont know what to do any more, I feel like I cant hide it anymore. This terrible feeling of depression and then the accompaniment of anxiety is killing me. I submitted a new availability sheet to work VIA email last night and asked for a confirmation that it has gotten to the right person and will be implemented next week. I need to keep this job until I find something else, or if I am hired to work in the dean's office, which would be amazing to work for the school again. I love this school and anyone who knows me, knows this to be true.
And put an exact finger on why I am feeling this way. A little bit ago I took a 2mg xanax in hopes it would get me out of this and yes it is starting to do the job.
My mom leaves to go to Crested Butte tomorrow morning so Oliver and I will be all alone in the house together. Which, I am assuming will be a nice change for a couple of days. But, I have to say that my mom has been a significant figure in my wellbeing. My dad has too, but I dont talk to him much anymore. We are in the "No news must be good news" mentality. I haven't seen him since the Targos' were in town visiting... I don't know why we're so estranged from each other. I miss him. We used to have a stronger relationship.
I am renting this bike from the city, well the city B-Cycle program for a full year. I can dock it at one of the 30+ stations in Denver or I can keep it at home. If it needs air or maintenance I just dock it and the city will take care of it. I want to go get it so I can have a bike again, and I can ride it around the lake and the highlands. It's really far so I need my mom to drive me to one of the stations so I can pick a bike up! I got my card this morning in the mail so I am excited to start using it. I would really like ot get it before my mom leaves for CB in the morning.
Later this evening I am going to write a longer "story" for the post that I made yesterday, which seems to be a good one. I want to tell my full story, so people know that there is a story behind me too. I have experienced these things too.I will write later, and hopefully I will have a bike by then!
Goodnight moon.
And put an exact finger on why I am feeling this way. A little bit ago I took a 2mg xanax in hopes it would get me out of this and yes it is starting to do the job.
My mom leaves to go to Crested Butte tomorrow morning so Oliver and I will be all alone in the house together. Which, I am assuming will be a nice change for a couple of days. But, I have to say that my mom has been a significant figure in my wellbeing. My dad has too, but I dont talk to him much anymore. We are in the "No news must be good news" mentality. I haven't seen him since the Targos' were in town visiting... I don't know why we're so estranged from each other. I miss him. We used to have a stronger relationship.
I am renting this bike from the city, well the city B-Cycle program for a full year. I can dock it at one of the 30+ stations in Denver or I can keep it at home. If it needs air or maintenance I just dock it and the city will take care of it. I want to go get it so I can have a bike again, and I can ride it around the lake and the highlands. It's really far so I need my mom to drive me to one of the stations so I can pick a bike up! I got my card this morning in the mail so I am excited to start using it. I would really like ot get it before my mom leaves for CB in the morning.
Later this evening I am going to write a longer "story" for the post that I made yesterday, which seems to be a good one. I want to tell my full story, so people know that there is a story behind me too. I have experienced these things too.I will write later, and hopefully I will have a bike by then!
Goodnight moon.
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