doodly doodly doo.

i took my much loved blue blanket out of the closet and put it into a bag of donations.  that blanket warmed me through so many countless days and nights.  served me well, comforted me.....it was soft, smelled great......yes, an adult blankie to be sure.

i hope that the next person will find a reason to use it someway......i got a snow white blanket, that is not as large, but so very soft.  makes me think of snow in the abstract.  sort of....i, being the earth hibernating beneath that blanket of white.  silly string thinking.  fanciful.....i can live with that.

i made breakfast, remembered to change the clocks last night.  big gold star for getting the time right.  on the day of especially.  the dishes are done, i'm clean and shiny........so what's next?

i have a question, can you get a cold in one eye?  my right eye is tearing up (no pain)......then this morning there was schmutz outside the corners of both eyes.  not gunk per se, just some whitish trails on my face......ok, not trails but thin deposits.  i have to leave my body now and fly to a land of a happier me sipping pink lemonade riding on a carpet flying through the soft air of fancy.  the body is just tooooo weird to live in.......maybe i could become a house or a monument.......be a face with those other presidents in south dakota for awhile. not because i have grandiose visions of myself, but because i might enjoy being a giant face for an afternoon surrounded by handsome rock men........ok, even to me that sounds pretty weird.

todays' hope?  go to a play,  the winder community theater is holding a matinee at 3 pm.  owls get reduced rate tickets.....helen wouldn't enjoyu this as her vision is pretty impaired.  ginny and hubby are going to their son's today to hang out and then eat dinner later.  annette and hubby are in kentucky.......hubby's (Jon) mother is now in hospice care.  She is 98, has pneumonia and has been refusing food and water for a few days  now.  i haven't heard from annette so ........sigh, well i don't know for a fact but i suspect.  i've been praying for all of them......the level of tired is pretty ridiculous.

in me i mean........i also need to go pick up those blood thinners today or tomorrow.  i'm planning tonight's dinner menu.....laid out ingredients/spices to make a small batch of baked crispy chicken wings.  have leftover veggies i can heat up.  add some pears or applesauce and it's all good.

i should cut up the wings but i so don't wanna.  childish or lazy or sick........not really sure today.  can i get back to  you on that?

i'm watching west wing reruns.  i've ordered a replacement tv remote but since i don't feel up to being in the living room it's tricky.  the remote is almost dead, so first i click on the power button.  the tv wakes up, then each step requires waiting an average of 3-5 minutes per step.

first i see a screen that shows me the various apps for viewing.  the netflix app is already chosen which is good, because the remote won't let me go left, right up or down.  so netflix it is.  wait, wait, wait, wait.......and wait some more.  then click on the box with my name attached to it.  the main screen within Netflix comes into view.  I have to listen to a movie preview that I don't want to listen to again, but have no choice as the remote doesn't care what I want.  it's thoroughly engaged in dying.  so i wait, wait,wait, wait and wait some more.  reminds me of my brother doing a death scene while playing cowboys and indians as children.  he would dramatically grab his chest......whirl around, fall half way......clutch his chest some more......finally fall but then hang on hogging the stage of our afternoon play time.  he would gasp, croak out some phrase......lie still for a minute then come back to life for more histrionics.  he thought he was the oscar winning actor, say a Glenn Ford or Robert Mitchum of our back yard.

finally the remote allows me to click once to watch the West Wing.  it opens and then after more punishing minutes allows me to watch another episode.  it's hard to wait in this way.  it's not that i'm going anywhere or doing anything else, it just seems bloody unfair that my primary toy is on the fritz.  not awake enough to read........not well enough to live in the living room.  sometimes later in the day i can make the big move into the big green chair.  but not yet.

not a super impressive share, my apologies.  mostly just letting me know that i am still here.  alive alive ohhhhhhh.  my eyes are burning now......sinus head pain.  gotta be so patient all the time..........let's take up a collection via the internet to hire people to complain, whine and throw fits to let off some steam occasionally.  we could make it more entertaining by putting them in costumes......lizzie borden and her axe could be one .........wiley coyote could be another.......we could let i dream of jeannie Jeannie out of that bleeping bottle and let her go off on captain nelson.  she could cross her arms and blink out all kinds of frustrations......

sigh, see ya in the funny papers!