don't really want to write this....

.....but, I think I should take my own medicine. I had a busy morning at work and then felt

crestfallen when I got home. I didn't feel like doing much, I mean I thought I could

go out for coffee, and then grocery shop but I wasn't pulled so much to do either.
I need to 'believe I am worth it' and also be patient. I may not have something in mind

that will be a pleasure to do immediately but like I recommended in a post response earlier

today, it would be a good thing to give the pursuits 'a try' and then maybe I'll see if

I liked them. Today just may be my eyes are opening up to accept and cope with some

of the unknown and the way I handle it....I do feel sullen but NOT beaten.