don't know the answer right now...but reminding myself

I've been on the couch just thinking about things...trying to. :)

My therapist has said to me that it would be a good idea

for me to find somewhere additional to volunteer.

I think she's right. She also said that I should be looking to go 

back to work. On that point I don't know if I agree with her.

I have a part time job. It's exhausting..but maybe she believes in me and in that I just shouldn't

limit my horizons. I am unsure.

But in terms of volunteering, I will look for volunteer stuff - would really like

to volunteer again for the Mountains Restoration Trust or the Treepeople.org.

I love stuff like that. I also like design preservation. There's an LA Conservancy

which might be something I could look into to see if they need volunteers.

The pandemic might be a hard time to find something relatively safe. The food

bank I was working with wasn't so safe (someone there had the virus!! yikes!) So I stopped

going there.

I've been reviewing this journal but I wrote the following on the first pass of writing it:

I find myself better able to piece things together here on the journal as I write

things out... 

A good thing to remember.

So, I was sitting on my couch and I didn't have the answers - like no sense of self - 

and so I couldn't direct myself to make any plans - but then I reminded myself of the pearl

my therapist offered once...

"What will you do to carry you through...?"

So, I decided to come on and journal

and in the process I found some answers and direction and solace.

peace and good kharma.

Mark