doing well

I went over to my parents' house for dinner tonight.

The evening left me feeling mixed up about stuff -- and lonely and ruminating,

but I remembered what I learned earlier in the day which was to remember

my personal culture or method for staying on track and taking care of life.

I might not feel great, I might feel mixed up and a little cray cray. But I know

I can deal with my responsibilities and get on with taking care of what I need

to do - not in denial of the mixed up feelings that may be there but with a kind of just like an 'even so.'

I aknowledge that I am lonely. I acknowledge I may ruminate to carry certain relationships

with me in order to fill the void of loneliness - but if I give that cognition - and I remember

to set my focus on taking care...I know I can take care of myself and things associated with

good home management. Peace and I am going to bed!! Nighty night friends! xo