I am doing better, so I thought I would journal about that rather then only journaling when I am depressed and anxious. I have been doing better here lately, thanks to a new medication the doctor has me on. I have resisted medication for so long wanting to do it on my own, without any medical help. The medication is symbyax, it helps with sleep and making me more settled. I am thinking of getting off of it because I am hungery all of the time, and have gained 12 pounds also my husband and I have been trying to have a baby and pregnant women are not supposed to take it. I am supposed to have a doctors appointment on wednesday and I am going to talk to him about a different medication. I really do not want to regain all of the weight I lost after my last son was born. I have an inkling I maybe pregnant this month some aches I have been having have made me wonder if I could be, the earliest I can test would be wednesday so I will keep you guys posted. I know I could be making a mountain out of a molehill and all the aches I have been feeling could be nothing. Also on Thursday my sister and I are going to a Quilting festival for 4 days it will be nice to get away, I have not been on a real good road trip in a long time and I am looking forward to it. Apprently I was making a mountain out of a molehill I took a pregnancy test this morning it was negative, I am a little bummed but oh well there is always next month. I also have nausea, I think I have some sort of virus, my husband had it first and got over in about a day I hope I do the same. I don't want to be sick on my vacation. So far I have been keeping up with my goals I set up last week. I exercised 4 times this week and I have surpassed my goal for reading the book Team of Rivals and I am on chapter 4. So I am feeling good about that. Keep praying for me to continue, to meet and exceed my goals. Thank you to all who are.