Taking my own advice

Splitting my attentions.

I found myself yearning so much to talk to someone who I could confide in.

Someone who I could tell my truth to, who would help me find the truth or the assuaging answer... 'the answer..'

And yet then the fear of what that person might say in response came to me. Who could I share with?...worry, paranoia  or a natural just kind of not knowing what or where the other might be coming from..

I had things to do this morning. I had to help my stepmom do some gardening and the reality of having to be self responsible just as everyone else does came to me and my eyes started to open to see the imperfections within all cases and I just started to live with a comfortable 

humanistic view of things..(splitting my attentions) ...grateful for the expressions of love in whichever way they came.

I’m still processing the trip but trying to be open to life in front of me and ahead! Have a good day you guys!!