Dissertation

How bad does it actually have to get before we feel the real need to end our own life? It differs for me as to what I should be doing with my life and who my friends are and so on. I am in debt like crazy and I don't have the job to pay the bills and I get a low allowence from my father. I have applied to disability services and they finally sent me something back the other day. They want me to see one of their psychologists for a better look into my bipolar disorder. They also want me to bring in any and all medications that I am taking for their review. I feel like this is big brother looking down at me but, instead I am asking them for help and the only thing hat matters is the fact that they do agree and help me with some money. Oh I will have to writ me later.