Disappear

I want all my memories to disappear. I want to remember only basic things like, who my family is, how to do math, how to walk, eat, talk, etc. I want to forget every bond and experience I have ever had though, good or bad. I want to start all over again. Even my faith, I want to believe in God and remember my faith, but I would love a completely clean slate with him. His is the only bond I don't want to loose. I want to forget the memories, but keep the bond and get the chance to grow with God from a cleaned slate. I want to wake up and know that my name is Jamia Joy Johnson, I have a younger brother, and an older half brother, my parents are still together, etc, but my feelings for everything is completely gone, and I have to relearn the bonds. I want there to be a trust between my family and I, but everything else is a fresh start. I want all my fears, doubts, emotional pains, the things I suppress, and every other memory to disappear :D