Different Time Zone
I have finally figured out why people who have not lost their spouses expect us to "get over it" so fast; it is because they are in a different time zone. At 15 months out from Stan's death, I did not expect to continue to feel so much sadness and loneliness. Fifteen months sounds like a lot of time on paper, but it feels different emotionally. Like it or not, I have these two different calendars and two different clocks that I am attempting to live by, and draw together, but often times they are running along separate parallel lines. Yesterday when someone at church asked me how I was, I said "all right" but I thought "not really - I'm still in pain". I gave him the answer I knew he would understand, not the one I was feeling. I wonder how long it will be before I feel back in "real" time again.