Didn't Oversleep Today

Today I managed to stay awake after I got up around noon. I got about 13 hours of sleep, maybe a bit less, since I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't fall back asleep. After over an hour I took a klonopin and finally fell back asleep. When I woke up I didn't feel that tired, so I decided I was going to do what I said and tried reading a book. It was hard, since the print was small and I couldn't turn on the light because Geo was sleeping, but I did the best I could. After an hour or so of reading and resting, I got up and went for a walk. Today my walk was better... I walked 2.25 miles in 1 hour 7 minutes. Considering that yesterday it took me an hour to walk just 1.25 miles, I did good today. I didn't even sit. I wanted to walk more, but my phone died in the middle of my walk and I didn't want to be so far from home without my phone. You never know what's going to happen to you, even in a good neighborhood. There were cars passing by, so if I needed help I could have gotten it, but I would rather have my phone. Plus, I wanted Geo to be able to call in case he needed something. I forgot to leave my note out saying where I was, so he might have wanted to know.
I did end up taking a short nap today, but that's about it. I'm still tired and I feel like I have no energy, but that could be from me not being able to eat a lot lately. Maybe Blue Toes is right... I am stressing over too many tiny things. I just wish I knew how to let go. I did take a bath today after my walk and that helped with my legs twitching for a while. I think the after-walk twitching was just my muscles being sore. I did walk a long way for me. I felt good walking, though... I miss it. I've noticed that I've been less twitchy today, so maybe the walking is helping to relieve my stress. I know in the past walking has been stress relief for me, so maybe it is now too.
Mood today was okay... better than yesterday for sure. I want to say it was good, but I feel like something's holding me back. I just read for the most part today... it was nice. I stayed in bed and read a good book. It's called “Year of Wonders” and it's about a town in the time of the Black Plague. The writing in it is really well done. I've missed reading so much that instead of going on the computer all day I just read. It was nice to get lost in a book again. I used to read so much as a kid, and I've missed it more than I realized. It was a hard book to get started, since I realized it was such a good book and wanted to save it, but I realized if I kept saving it I would never read it.
I guess I will go with good mood today... I don't have anything to say it was a bad day, and I did have a wonderful time reading, so I guess I will say mood is good today. It was bad yesterday... I need to go fix the mood face on my journal. I put it as good when it was bad. I've just been so used to having good moods that having a bad day seems odd. It was my own fault that I had a bad day... I know I need to not sleep so much to have a good day, and I just slept yesterday. I need to make sure I don't make the same mistake tomorrow. I hate long weekends. I wish I could work every day, that way I could have something to get me out of bed every day. Well, not every day, I need time off now and then, but at least something every day to get me out of bed. I guess I will find something eventually... I will have to find a reason to get out of bed for my own sake.
Food today was better than I expected. I'm over 1,300 calories, so that's good. I'm doing better than yesterday. I couldn't manage any more food yesterday so I was at 744 calories for the day. That's horrible and I ended up gaining a pound since I stored it all as fat. I'm at 234 pounds now... that's great that I'm losing weight, but I only lose when I eat in my range or close to it. Getting off so much Depakote did the trick, I think. I got my dose cut in half, and since then the weight has been dropping off fast. I can't wait for Thanksgiving to come.... I want to have good meals, and get some good food. I know I'm going to eat my whole day's worth of calories in one meal, but it's going to be worth it. My goal for the month is to end the month under 235, so I'm already there... I just need to stay there. Stress today was low as far as I know... I'm never sure with these things anymore. Sleep last night was broken.. I was up from 5-6:30am for no reason, and I had another migraine. Mood was good I have decided, so that's my day!