Didn't land the gig, but...
I didn't land the gig, but another business opportunity presented itself. (An even better one!) AND I got offered another gig on top of that. AND I'm starting to date someone new, who seems to genuinely care about me. I stopped drinking, but picked up morphine again. The sad part, is it doesn't even seem to affect me. I only get sleepy with headaches. It's like nothing can even touch me anymore. I know I need to check into a medical detox and get some serious help...but I'm so scared of squandering everything.
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Unfortunately, if you keep abusing drugs and/or alcohol you will end up squandering everything eventually anyway. I think if you feel you need intensive help, you should get it. You are very young at have tons of time to build a life for yourself, but you need the proper foundation to do that on. Don\'t waste your life trying to white knuckle your way through it - learn to live and enjoy:) Addiction issues usually don\'t just go away on their own. They usually get much worse. Just the 2 cents from someone who has been there, done that.
Jen