Did this all mean nothing all broken promises and dreams

I met him this year just after Valentines Day when I took up Ten Pin Bowling again. The Team I was in just didn't return and I was sitting at the lane and this guy walks up and Introduces himself and says nice to meet you.He asks where my team is and and I tell him I don't have one and he says join ours we have a spare spot. So I did. We were friends for weeks and I found out that he had an almost 20 year old daughter. He made me laugh so much and was great company...I got sick a few weeks later and couldn't bowl and didn't have either his or the other ladys phone number so I didn't go bowling. Went the next week and we exchanged numbers and he texted a few days later and said hi if you want to catch up over the weekend no pressure for lunch or a drink just have a think about it. We did go out. Found out h'ed  been married twice...no big deal. Back at bowling onn the Tuesday things became official and we were a couple. A few weeks later he met my Mum but she was wary of the two marriages...but seemed to like him still. At the bowling alley a week later a woman we bowl with walks up and says in front of me your were in....(names another woman)bed last week and now your with her...he said I was not I ve been with Larayne for 5 weeks. We left and he said that he didn't do what she said...The next week he didn't go bowling because he had a migraine and this same woman attacks me and says that he was with her friend and I said stay out of it your just jealous the relationship with her friend was over 3 months ago...leave us alone. couldn't get her out of my head so on the Monday my him and I` had coffee and I told him to sort out his past and that's when he admitted that he had slept with his ex only once when we had  been together 3 weeks...I had asked previously what had ended his marriages...1st one ...too young...second one...too into horses hed told me but this night he said hed cheated on her.... he promised to get help but I broke it off..
 
We were apart four weeks and he said that he would get help and never do it again he didn't want to live like this anymore.Loving him so much I agreed and suggested that we could both go for support.
He also faced my Mum and told both of us that he would never hurt me again and that he intended to marry me. He told me that he had credit card debt of 1500 and needed to clear it and it was worrying him so I offered to help him budget. My Mum suggested that instead of going out and spending mney we could see each other on weekends on a Sunday and put his extra money off the debt and call each other to stay in touch. I estimated that it would take about 12 weeks`to clear the debt and I said and he agreed that it would set us up for our future to buy a house and have a baby get married etc...
We talked every night taking it in turns to call each other or Skype and things were so good. We even had a mock wedding ceremony and he said where can we get married and I named a place he said I love it and I cant wait to marry you..
This was over a 6 month period the last time we spoke he couldn't wait to be married to me and that was the 6th of August I tried calling for 2 days and got nothing but an engaged signal then a text on the 8th saying I fell asleep on the couch honey and my phone was lost talk tonight I love you wife...which is what he always called me...still hasn't happened. The following week on the Monday I became sick with a migraine and couldn't work so I sent a text saying I love you darling if there is something wrong family or job related or to do with us please talk to me....Nothing...2 days later I said I am sick and your silence isn't helping Im not angry but I want to know your okay...Then a letter...nothing...3 weeks later still nothing after more texts...Id  figured he needed space to sort some stuff out and I had said in a text if you need space I understand just tell me whats going on. So I ended it my letter saying I LOVE YOU deeply but this is no way to build a life let alone a marriage did the vows we said to each other to be there on the coldest of days and the darkest of nights to support and love mean nothing to you...I wish you love and peace...I will never forget you goodbye.
The ring that was mine that he put on my finger cracked and I replaced it because he was paying off his debt...Its up for sale...as were the lee kernaghan tickets...
the photos and the angel of love that he gave me are in the wardrobe for now...texts and emails deleted....all in the last few days. I can only think that he got cold feet and didn't want another marriage to fail and couldn't face me or my mother...I would have understood...It has been four weeks now and I am devastated but I want to be happy again... just writing it down has helped