Dharma

Katie left Denver this morning after having breakfast with me. She is going along with Rachael to California to look into upcoming wedding arrangements. I was surprised and delighted to hear that one of Rachael's other good friends, Tracy Stenger, had expressed her opinion to Rachael about this marriage during a fight they had. It means a lot to me to know that there are other people out there that have the same crazy opinion as I do. Therefore, I am not crazy, at least on this issue. It really dishartens me that I am not her friend. She kept telling me in the past that she wanted me to be the maid of honor, now I can't even get her on the phone. I wonder what she is feeling about me. Is she sad? Lonely? I don't understand and I don't think I ever will. I am watching "Crash" what a depressing and realistic movie. It's a depiction of our American society and the racism that we feed through each other as we, at the same time, crash into each other's lives. I have been reading a lot about Dharma or Buddhism and the religion they purely follow. I wish we could all follow some of the ten laws of Dharma (look them up).  I am somewhat excited about tomorrow. I am going to see my primary doctor... well she is really a PA buy knows what she's doing especially with regard to my ulcer and nausea. Then I am going to go to the car dealership and I am going to try to find a different car to replace this buick that I dont think is going to work for me. Again, I really hope that these brothers that own the shop wil be good to me and they will trade the car for something that will last a while and is kinda cool. I cant think about it anymore for the day because I dont want to obsess about it. I know that's going to be hard to do but, it's ok I like to think of what could be. I am willing to pay them more money because I want and need a better car.  Again it was nice to have breakfast with Katie and Jay this morning. I am glad that I got to see then this trip because I know that I did not want to visit them or have anyone visit me. Sometimes I am simply content on my own. Give me best wishes for the new car, lol. Goodnight Moon.