Devestation with the loss of my husband

I feel totally devestated with the loss of my husband Smokey.  I could not get out of the house.  My brother came over and that was nice.  It feels as if Hurricane Katrina flooded my soul at the loss of Smokey.  Now I am trying to recover and it is not easy.  The sorrow goes down to the very bottom of my soul.  It just feels absolutely horrible.  I don't know how to describe it.  It has been four months.  I just keep remember how we did everything together and the good memories we shared.  I wonder if I will ever find anyone like my Smokey again when I am ready.   It feels like such a big loss in my life that I might not recover from it.  It feels that way.  One never knows.