Detaching
You know my world is flipped upside down. I had no idea what I had done last April when I got married and shortly after two weeks got divorced I don't really know where to go from here. I'm pretty depressed, but I think with everything going on I should just stay strong and just waited out myself things a way of working out that's not the end of the world but it just seems like it. I really wanted it to work but it's just been a nightmare so I have really feelings towards my family right now that I don't share with them feelings of abandonment my sister exists my life it's just so sad I feel like I'm the problem honestly I don't care at this point
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I'm sorry to hear about this trauma. How can we help. I can offer a bit of insight from books I've read on the most extreme cases of depression. The feelings, despite their magnitude, are temporary.
I don't pretend to understand your emotional journey or trauma in this but at least you can take solace in knowing it did not continue based on a lie waiting for who knows how long to rot away in misery.
That doesn't eliminate the current or lessen it but it's a form of relief you can take. Disappointment versus a blowup of building what one thought was a dream.
Take some time for rest, unwind, and be good to yourself.
I think it is pretty normal to sort of beat ourselves up for marrying wrong and then divorcing. I had to see that the truth of my situation was this was a bad and unhealthy relationship for me and my soul has to keep moving forward. We humans make mistakes. No one is perfect.
I can also understand the feelings of abandonment by those we love, People fail us at times or have their own agendas.
As for the depression, it is natural to the situation of the marriage and your family. But if you can't do some things to help yourself feel better, like journaling every evening pen to paper naming your feelings for that day, exercising, going outside for walks, etc. then get professional help.
I had to realize that I was not 100% the problem in my first failed marriage. My ex was also not 100% of the problem. Owning my part and my own thinking helped me grow. You will find growth out of this, dear one. Allow. yourself some peace and be self compassionate, okay?
It’s good to know that I’m human. It’s good to know that people make mistakes. It’s good to know that I can walk away from this and learn a lesson is good to know that I can use self-love. It’s good to know that I am still going forward in life thank you for all your input
This may actually be a new and better chapter in your life.