Depression Update

Last night Geo was on the phone with a friend when I came in crying. I told him I would be okay, despite I was crying. I thought he would take the hint, but he didn't get it. I talked to him this morning and he said he would have come if I had asked. I just didn't want to feel like I was a bother last night to have him get off his phone call for me. That, and him screaming while he first lies down make me feel horrible for asking him. He always does that when he lies down and his back settles. I ended up calling the crisis line and talking to them for a bit. After that, I took my pills and went to sleep. I feel a bit better today, even if I'm still a bit hurt that he took the call and didn't see that I needed help. I don't know what he was talking about on the phone, but I don't think it was more important than I was. I talked to him this morning about it and he was like 'if you wanted me to come lie down, I thought you would tell me". I just didn't want to be a burden on him. And of course, nobody picked up their phones (Ann, you are clear.. I know you were close to sleep with I called) so the only thing I had left was the crisis line.