Depressed and opening up the truth

Ok I know what some of u think already of me.  but I held this load in me for soooooooooooooooooooo long.  for any one of u that dont want to be friends with me anymore I understand.  Im also on this site because as a little girl I was a liar.  Its hard on me to admit it and I will not put this on private.  everything I said from years and days on this site was true but Im scared .