Depressed and Lazy
I have just been slacking off lately. I've been keeping my New Year goals (eat at least 1 veggie a day and exercise for at least 10 minutes a day) and am losing weight (yay!). I don't know why I'm depressed.. There are so many reasons- I've been missing my dad, having nightmares, can't focus, sleep like crap and feel like crap. Someone got my ATM card info and was using it for gas and stuff. I got some of the money back, and should have the rest by tomorrow night. I have a pinched nerve or something in my neck/shoulder area and it hurts to turn my head. I was supposed to volunteer today, but felt sick when I woke up. I'm barely eating and losing weight the wrong way. I did walk 2.6 miles yesterday... I want to train for a 5k (3.1 miles), do a couple of those and move on to 10k (6.2 miles). Eventually I want to work up to a marathon, but I have to take baby steps. I know I can do it... And I love to run anyway, get me in great shape even if I'm not at my target weight. I have managed to piss off Geo with something new every day. I'm just under a lot of stress and want to get away. I have to stay here, though... I have to help him with everything with the surgery. He has to go on a diet shake diet for 3 weeks before surgery- no solid food, just shakes. He needs to lose weight to make it easier for surgery. I talked with my doctor and he said that I could go on a protein shake diet with Geo. That way there's no food in the house. I don't know what I'm going to do on my birthday... I will be on a shake diet with him and can't go out to dinner and have cake. *sigh* things are quite sucky today.
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Honey, you can do it. It is only for three weeks. Hope all goes well. Hugs
I hate it when I hit the wrong button. You are being hard on yourself again. You need to be gentle and understanding. Let everything just wash over you. You are doing great. Hugs.
Focus on the positives! HUGS!
you have been going through a lot lately and the invasion of your privacy is very hard to get over though happy you will get the money back. it is hard to move forward but we have to. one will always miss a loved one, we just need to find a way to not have it affect our daily living. it is good that you are sticking to your goals and are aiming even higher, that is a stress reliever! I know you know what to do as far as eating and I believe you can do it and get back on track. I am sorry about the daily issues with geo, all you have done for him and this is not what you deserve. you can do it with the protein shakes and I give you many kudos for doing this for geo!!! I so hope today is better! many hugssss
http://www.c25k.com/
Have you heard of this plan? Quite a few of my friends run marathons and this is how they started
Thanks for all your support. You don\'t know how good it makes me feel. As for the 5k, I did do a C25K before, now I\'m just adding distance at my own pace. I have my half marathon training for when I\'m getting good at 10k
go on one of those boat tours around miami for your birthday. those are fun. better than a dinner out actually.
i find if i don\'t DO enough and stay occupied enough, its depressing. my cure is generally the beach or beach walking, swimming even better or a spa, but i know the keeping busy is super important for everyone in life. you are smart larissa, you need to be doing, maybe you can study something new like selling car insurance or something? its a 3 month course and would give you a career.
hope you feel better. xxoo
I\'m not ready for work yet. I can\'t even volunteer on a weekly basis. I feel trapped by my disorders and meds... I hate them but I need them.