DEPRESSED

Dear Journal,

I finally stopped having panic attacks 24/7 but today I am feeling so down.  I keep pushing everybody away, even my teachers.  I was in such a bad mood yesterday, and was really upset so instead of telling myself to snap out of it, I threw my math teacher in the middle of it.  And not the first time I have just gotten mad and thrown a teacher into the crossfire and yelled at them for no reason.  It makes me feel so bad because they don't deserve that, and it gets me down even more.  I have been pushing everybody away.  I don't really interact with much of anyone in class or out of class either.  I sit by myself at lunch, before school, and after school.  I have had less patience lately and have felt like bursting into tears for no reason.  It has got me so down in the dumps.  I feel suicidal right now and I'm afraid this time I won't be able to get out of it.  

Sincerely,

  Ari