delusionally tired and in a scary good mood. xD

Things seem to be mostly on track.. although I have been REALLY wanting to talk to him.. it's not even that he isn't putting in the effort. He's actually been trying and he has really been wanting and trying to talk to me.. It's just I've been busy quite a bit... I'm hoping I'll get to talk to him soon though.. And we finally got our dog fixed so no more puppies! Just gotta make it til Friday isolating her from other animals. Lol I'm hoping to get everything I need soon and I'm going to see if I can start donating plasma once or twice a week for some money. I'd like to get the tattoo I'm wanting done. And then I can start saving as much of it as I can maybe. Tattoo will be my first splurge, then I plan on saving up. I could get 50-100 a week from that.. not much, but it will give me extra cash til my mom let's me get a job which is better than nothing. I'm really trying to stay positive. Overall things have been going okay.. I mean, I've been better... Life has definitely gone better.. but... I'm keeping my chin up and trying really really hard not to let everyone push me back down into the dark place I was in.. I am able to let people vent without completely losing it, which is good.. I'm in no way cured... I still struggle every second... But, I'm okay. I have been feeling overall better about myself. I've been feeling better in general.  Still a lot of drama and issues. But I'm trying to find better ways to cope.. It's a step in the right direction. : ) I'm not feeling the need to stop eating, I'm trying to work on what I eat and how much. And I'm still hoping to start some kind of exercise routine. I need more consistency and good habits in my life.  I need to stop letting everyone hold me back. I need to stop letting myself hold me back.. 
And as for everyone reading this.. I want you to know.. I love you, you are sooo good enough, you are amazing,  gorgeous, handsome, and you can get through whatever is thrown at you. You can do this! You are strong, even when you have weak moments <3 you are perfectly imperfect! You are smart. You are just all around enough. We can do this! We can all get through this. Whatever is going on is just a bump in the road, or maybe even a mountain in our path.. But we are all so strong.. We will make it through this life, and one day, we will look back at this and think "wow... I did it. I survived soooo much..." : 3 I got your back! I'm just a message away. And anyone is welcome to kik me or snapchat me. both- Sierrawr6911
You are never truly alone. Because you can always come to me. <3 Stay alive guys! Keep your head high and your hopes and dreams higher. I believe in you! : )