Deja Vu
One of these days I'm going to learn. For the past week, I've corresponded with my ex girlfriend via text. (I think if I phrase it that way, it doesn't sound so sneaky considering she is currently in a relationship. Sounds so businessy!)
We've discussed multiple topics: the weather, work, what it's like living in a big city. Topics also included her current relationship, my lack of one, our relationship and what went wrong/right. It's been a roller coaster of emotions that I wasn't prepared for.
Most of the time I'm offering her advice on her current situation with her girlfriend. They've been together. So I think she's getting comfortable..blah..blah..blah. I've been WAY nice about it.
At one point during our conversation, she said she missed me. And that she wanted to try again. Of course, I was floored. I didn't know how to respond. Because she didn't say she was going to leave her girlfriend. But we shared some very sweet, intimate conversations that, no matter what, I won't regret. It feels like I'm in high school again.
As of now, I've concluded that she's not going to leave her girlfriend anytime soon. I kind of feel like she wants me on the back burner in case that relationship fails. But the way she talks, it doesn't sound like they're really going anywhere. So for some reason I'm okay with it. I don't know. I've never been in this position before. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel.
She's enjoying her holiday weekend with her lady, so I guess we'll see how she feels on Tuesday when she texts me.
We've discussed multiple topics: the weather, work, what it's like living in a big city. Topics also included her current relationship, my lack of one, our relationship and what went wrong/right. It's been a roller coaster of emotions that I wasn't prepared for.
Most of the time I'm offering her advice on her current situation with her girlfriend. They've been together. So I think she's getting comfortable..blah..blah..blah. I've been WAY nice about it.
At one point during our conversation, she said she missed me. And that she wanted to try again. Of course, I was floored. I didn't know how to respond. Because she didn't say she was going to leave her girlfriend. But we shared some very sweet, intimate conversations that, no matter what, I won't regret. It feels like I'm in high school again.
As of now, I've concluded that she's not going to leave her girlfriend anytime soon. I kind of feel like she wants me on the back burner in case that relationship fails. But the way she talks, it doesn't sound like they're really going anywhere. So for some reason I'm okay with it. I don't know. I've never been in this position before. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel.
She's enjoying her holiday weekend with her lady, so I guess we'll see how she feels on Tuesday when she texts me.
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