definitely wishing it were Tuesday
Tuesdays I get to talk to my therapist. Right now I would benefit so much from
a chat with her. I'm tempted to write about my issues here today but I feel like
I am weighing the pros and cons of talking it out and I'm not sure if that will help.
For some reason, I'm at a loss for words, when normally I am not.
I feel like I have been in a 'drive' towards a perfect communication
but realize we're all stumbling with the combination of issues we have
every body - healthy or not. Don't let perfect be the enemy of the good.
Perfect in 'knowing' too I am thinking.
I've worried and felt ill at ease at my astonishment that I am loved.
From my Blue too.
And yet then, when knocked out of that astonishment to reality - and gratefully live with it
- I fear
that I am scrambled brains by whims of the day - to make me turn into
something scrambling to compensate.
I know we self sacrifice for the good of the group - and sometimes - self
asserting feels like a not such a good element of life.
I guess this is what I'll talk to my therapist about.
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Big hug sweetie... . I'm sorry that you're struggling.... Perfection doesn't exist IMHO... Maybe with God but not us mere mortals ... It's good that you're thinking about what you'd like to discuss with your therapist though
Where I lived before here my landlord was a perfectionist and he really lived in a mess because of it... He was trying to paint a back bedroom and he still had the baseboards off and the paint out a year later due to never being able to see his paint job as perfect... He always found some flaw that he couldn't deal with... True story
I hope that you have a lovely day Marky..... xo
Thanks Jan!!!
Write it out in a paper journal marky, sometimes that helps and then you don't have other people weighing in on your thoughts. Then you can talk to your Therapist about what you wrote on Tuesday.
Thanks Kat