Defiance

Who are you?  You pretend to need me,  Try to influence, Beg to control me, But I say no. I turn you down And tell you to leave, But you stay.  I hate you,  Because of whom I am,  Because of what you make me want to become. You touch me So intimately that It frightens me I hate that I need you That your presence shakes me That your eyes dare me Sometimes I almost give in. You try to tempt me But your lips lay warnings on my brow A smile that bares its teeth If I would love you It would destroy me And you would win Drain me of my passion Leave me hanging out A real death Without that beating sound you love so much That sound that draws you into me That’s what you crave the most Destruction is your calling And still I can’t escape The way you call my name  Like we were lovers The way your sultry breathing makes my name a cry of passion One that makes me shiver In fear and pleasure  Could I deny your endless thirst? You prey on feelings of neglect You feed on all my troubles You know my every weakness But still I will prevail....    - garnet01