Decent day

Doing well today. Spouse. Been put of house since Wednesday. We've texted a bit and I visited his new place. Stayed only 20 minutes. I read all about the 180 yesterday and am a pretty big believer. The surprising thing about it, and others have said this too, is that you don't concentrate you efforts or do it because you want to sway the H to come back, but you do it to strengthen yourself. I am able to pull back emotionally and it makes me realize that there are certain things I LIKE a bout not having my H at home. It's still lonely, but I feel in charge, and that'thin good thing. He tells me to date. Haha, that's just to assuage his guilt, or to make me say, " I would never do that!" But my goodness, I do not want to date. Geez, he just left. I really wouldn't date unless we were divorced or very close. It is a little hard, but also a little gratifying to see him so struggle so greatly. Honestly, what did he expect? I guess he never thought through just how tough it would be to lose me and his kids and his home. Wake up!!! But sadly, it may be too late for us.... We will see.