December 24th 4 Years

As many of you here knows Christmas Eve will be 4 years since Josh's accident.  I can't believe it has already been 4 years.  Where has the time gone.  The only thing I can say is I am surviving.  I no longer like this time of the year.  It is supposed to be the happiest time of the and instead it is the worst.  How do you enjoy Christmas shopping, wrapping gifts and family time when you know the biggest part of heart is missing and will be forever more.  Just know that I love each of you and thank you for understanding and being there for me.
I love you Joshie Pooh.